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June 27, 2012

I Choose Recovery One Day at a Time

As my addiction took hold and control of my soul I found myself irretrievably drawn into a world governed by deep regret and great sadness. Lost dreams, past choices and what was missing from my life dominated every cons...cious and unconscious thought until my spiritual world became a wasteland of sorrow, resentment and fear.

But in recovery I came to understand that there was another world of love, joy and hope that existed simultaneously within me like a parallel universe. And as my understanding grew of these two worlds I realized that the power to choose between these realities was mine and mine alone. A conscious choice I must make ever day….a decision to dwell either in the wasteland of past illusions or the abundance of today.

In Recovery…I choose today, one day at a time


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June 20, 2012

What About Living In The Future?

In early recovery from addiction we sometimes feel we get conflicting advice on how to approach our future. From day one we are admonished to “live in the moment” and “take it one day at a time”. Yet if we adopt and use the spiritual principles we are given in recovery what we discover over time is that the future is not something to be wished for or feared but rather it is more an act of “moving forward without expectations or anxiety.

And if we go forward, “as living life and life’s term” offers us, we will profit the most if we never look around or over our shoulder to see if anyone is watching. Because learning to be satisfied with even the smallest amount of our own progress and to realize that even this smallest result is no trifle, moves us immeasurably forward in our spirituality and recovery.

There is no finer sensation in life than that which comes with victory over one's self. So just keep moving forward to that goal of inward achievement, brushing aside all your old internal enemies as you advance - to where freedom from our selves awaits.

Keep On Keeping On.

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June 14, 2012

Paths In Recovery

PathPeople who have never had to struggle with addiction themselves or with a loved one often find it odd when those of us who have - say that we feel “fortunate” to walk the path of recovery.  

“How”, they ask incredulously, “could ANYONE say they are glad or privileged to be an alcoholic or addict?” 

Yet the reality of recovery for us where we release all hope for a better past and accept that the future is not the result of choices among alternative paths offered by the present, but a place that is created one moment or one day at a time in concert with our higher power.

And the music that flows from that concert is a future that is not some place we are going, but that we are forever creating, a future where paths are not to be found but shaped, sometimes breath to breath. 

And as we make our way down these new and ever changing paths of recovery the very nature of this continuing process constantly alters, enriches and renews both us and the destination. 

That is why today I am a very grateful person in long term recovery from addiction.

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June 05, 2012

Courage in Recovery

CourageI have learned that recovery from addiction is not just freedom from the fear that once gripped my heart and governed my soul, but it is also about gaining new strength and power.  Power that flows from new found courage and confidence as I confront and face my fears in which I am able to tell myself, “I have lived through this horror, survived and can face the next challenge that comes along.” 

Today I know that I MUST do the things I THINK I cannot do because I have embraced, through recovery, the knowledge and promise that it is not what you go through that defines you.  It's what you do AFTER you've gone through it that really tests who you are.

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